It was abrupt and to the point

Sorry the last entry was so abrupt...but I am upset today. I mean- come on...in HS they tell you if you miss a pill your life is over because you will get pregnant. well- NEWS FLASH- its been 2 years since I was on the Pill...

Matt and I want to have a child of our own in the worst way. Being parents is important to us- and sometimes I think about how long it is taking and I just don't want to get out of bed. What is there to get up for? The cat gets in bed when Matt leaves...so hes by my side. He knows I'm upset and he tries to comfort me. It reminds me of Magnum whenever I was sad...he always wanted to be by my side. and I think if he lived with us he would still be there...

I don't want anyone to think I'm depressed or anything, but I really feel very strongly about being a parent. God has taken one child away from me, and I understand that he has his reasons, but what are his reasons now? Married- Check. In Love-Check. Financially situated- Check. Suitable Home-Check....so- now what?

I also wanted to tell everyone my sleeping pattern has returned to semi-normal. Up at 10(unless its Monday or Thursday) and to bed at 2. Its a healthy 8 hours.

TCC Update

So, not only did AF decide to show her UGLY UGLY face, she showed it a day early. If she was a real person, I'd ring her neck!

So onto Cycle #17 we go...still praying, Still hoping...and wanting to cry. I think to myself, Why me? Why does this have to happen to us? Someone who can afford a child, who wants one more then life itself, my DH and I want this baby so badly. So- why us?

I hate the- "you are young, give it time" line. Yeah- I'm 21...but hello- DH is 35. We are ready for this baby. Why cant we have it?

Getting pregnant shouldnt be this difficult.

Hello

Hello Friends and Family!
I know- once again it has been a while but with our in-and-out wireless its hard to determine when we can get online.

Not much is new. I made sqash soup for the first time- and it was great. I also made apple crisp tonight. We have been pumpkin patching it the past 2 weekends, and tomorrow(Columbus day) i plan on being there...as Sclafani is open and Matthew has to work.

I have started Christmas shopping... and we have decided to not do it last minute this year.

We have birthdays coming up as well...
April- Oct. 18th
Momma- Nov. 6th
Dad Fors- Nov. 20th

As well as Stefans birthday just passing- Oct 10th and Melissa Oct 15th...is approaching fast.
Thanksgiving is coming too! Im sure we will be spending that with my family this year- because Matt has to work the Friday after- but the plan is leaving when he gets home and heading to VA to Jason and Saras for a couple days. I have never been to there house and Matt hasnt been since they moved. We are excieted- especially me because I've never been to VA and stayed. Once I was there with my Dad- but I was little. I think the place was called blue ridge Lumber. lol... I thought their Purple Pencils were cool. But I guess thats what happens when you are 7. haha...

Anyway- goodnight and farewell for today!

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Sorry

Hello Friends and Family...

Sorry that its been a while, but between the lack of sleep and the schedule I've got I havn't been online much. It doesnt help that the wireless is in and out at our house. Its givin me time to do other things, like the Christmas budget, the list of cards we are sending, and started some shopping. Theres nothing like being prepared.

Anyway- I dont have much to write about today...I hope all is well with everyone and I hope everyone is excited about **Fall**

Good Day!

I have had a good day today! I am on day 4 of being a non-smoker. I feel good and even healthier already. I am really going to try to keep this up. I am also signed up for FitDay. Its a calorie tracking site. Being that I just quit smoking, I want to make sure I dont over eat. It helps me to have such great support. Alicia and Matt have been so great. I've only had a few cravings, but I've stayed strong.

We have come into contact with some of Matts family. He didnt know that his cousins had had kids, and was surprised. You've gotta love Facebook! :)

I've been spending a lot of time with Lish and Evan. Its a great accent to my days filled with Aunt Irene and Gran. I feel better now that I am spending time with someone my own age, and its always nice when there is a baby around.

We are looking into getting a Honda Accord when we get pregnant, I've come to realize the Jeep isnt going to last forever, and an SUV- as much as I'd love to have one, isn't going to be good for our pockets when it comes to gas. Especially when we are going to try to save money for Baby.

We might go upstate this weekend. My grandmother said its supposed to be nice. Then next weekend we can take Magnum to the Pumpkin Patch so he can get some exercise. :) and so we can get some. We have made a vow to get healthy! :):)

I slept!

It was great! I slept a whole 10 hours last night. 10-8. It was magnificent. I feel so much better. :) Thank you Matt...:)

Dress shopping went well. We found the dresses...on the first try and we are all very happy with the ones we picked.

Wide awake...going on night 9...grrr..

So- I'm wide awake...its 2am. I've cleaned the apt. Did the dishes, started the dishwasher and will empy it when its finished if I am still awake, checked my myspace and my facebook....now I've decided to update the blog...

I dont remember where I left off-so here goes...

My moms party was a hit. Momma and Daniel came up Sunday instead and we went tag saling.Matt has been on call, and we finally got to relax tonight after shopping for Kaylas B-day gift. Magnums Birthday is Monday, and Kaylas is Tuesday.

Todays Plans- 9/13
Get up (if I even go to bed) at 7.
Take a shower.
Lish is picking me up at 8 so we can drop the baby off( Did I mention he sat up by him self the other day... so exciting..I was glad I was there to witness it...GO EVAN!)and then pick up Morgan and head to Scarsdale to look at Bridesmaids dresses with my sister. Then off to Lunch in Bronxville- then to another shoppe to look at more dresses. All in all- there will be 7 of us. Fun.

So- thats about all I've been up to besides the usual Aunt Irene and Gran stuff... Hope I can write more soon...Shopping will be an adventure all in its own... G'nite!

6am...

Good Morning! Im still up! Tyson and I are having coffee( yes- he has his own) and watching the sun come up...we can hear Route 6 getting busier. Tyson went to bed with Matt at 12- and woke up around 5. I started cutting fabric out for quilt squares. I want to start making a small- cradle size quilt. So far I have yellow material. I need a Blue, Red, and Green Mans Size Medium Tee-Shirts for material.One Side is going to be Red and Yellow, the other Green and Blue.

I am watching Animal Rescues on Animal Planet. A Man in Maine on Sebago Lakefell through the ice while playing hockey with his dogs in January. His Black Lab saved him. His Golden Retriever  fell in too- and climbed on his back when the lab was pulling him out. You never think things like that can happen in a place near where you go every summer. 

Well- The sun will be up at 6:27, and thats in almost 10 minutes. Better get going. Its been a while since I've seen the sun come up!

2:03am....Awake

Good Morning! I'm awake and its 2am...again...lol... last night at this time, I was making a salad. Tonight...I am watching TLC and eating a piece of leftover cake that SHOULD feed 9 people. Washing it down with a half gallon of 2% milk. The sad thing is- I plan on eating all of it- and drinking all the milk. I woke up this morning at 9am- after sleeping for 6 hours. I wish I could sleep as peacefully as Matt...but it seems like I don't get to do that until sometime after 3am. I guess its good I can function well on little sleep. When I am a mom, I'll have to...lol... My mother-in-law is coming in about 11 hours with my father-in-law...and I'll be awake and chipper- I love seeing them. Next to my parents, they are the next best parents to me. I'm very lucky. I have great parents, a perfect husband, a perfect marriage and wonderful in-laws. I'm very lucky. I actually have 2 sets of in-laws and they are all great people. My mother-in-law is one of my best friends. I talk to her about everything. Somethings I'm sure she doesnt want to know- and I know I tell her more then she wants to know...lol- talk about TMI. I have already told her that I want to have her in the room with Matt and I when we have a baby. I dont know how many people can be in there- but if we have a baby at PHC- the rooms are pleanty large..and I think my mom will fit in too if she wants to be, and maybe my sister. Four people plus me.

I'm one who likes to be prepared, and speaking of knowing who I want to be there when we have a baby, I already have a Phone Chain for when we go into labor. Its kinda overboard right now, but like I said, I like to be prepared. As well as that, I know the decor idea of the nursery, and the layout, as long as we are still here when we have a child. Trains,Planes, and Trucks for a boy- in Reds, Yellows and Blues, and for a girl- I'm not 100%- I like Bees, Pinks, Purples and Teddy Bears. I know I always talk about having a baby...and most of you are sick of hearing it- but its what we really want. Matt can't wait to be a dad, and since I was a little girl- I've always felt like the reason I was put on earth was to be a mother. I even "breast fed" my dolls when we played house. 

Anyway- I've eaten 1/3 of the 9 pieces of cake, and I've chugged down 1/4 of a gallon of the milk.

I think its about time to stop blabbing...

g'nite/g'mornin!

Happy and Loved

Tomorrow is my mothers party. We've been cleaning and shopping to prepare. Its the first time Mom and Daniel will see or place. We have been doing a great job keeping it clean. I'm proud. :) I cant wait to see everyone tomorrow. Anyway. I just wanted to keep up with the blog. I feel like yelling to the world that I Love My husband. I've never been happier. :) And Matt makes me feel so loved. He makes me laugh and smile. And Giggle so much 
i could cry. i love him!

Its almost 3am...

Here I am- sitting at the computer at 2:45. I have a really bad stomach Ache. Internet is going in and out... really frustrating me. I made great Lasagna for dinner- matt loved it. We each had 2 big pieces. The only problem so far has been what I think is a sauce induced belly ache. I am tired and not in the mood for this. Hope it goes away soon!

Back from the ADKS

We are home, and we had a wonderful time. The first day it was rainy, and then it cleared up towards dinner time. IT was beautiful on Sunday. We got there Friday night around 9:30, and came home on Monday. We played monopoly and batle of the sexes while we were there. We wtched movies when it was rainy and at night, and got up and went to the lake to sit in the morning sun. We ventured out and went to dinner two nights, and went out and acted like tourists on Sunday. It was a lot of fun. Today- I am with Evan and Alicia. It has been a great day. I went to the bank and made my tuesday deposit as I do every week. I'm up to $1,039.98 in the bank. Every 1st of the month the gym takes 30 out- but other then that that money is not coming out of the bank until we need it for baby. Larry said as soon as I pee on a stick and its got 2 pink lines- he is going to put me on the insurance. That made us really happy. We might not have to wait until September! haha- maybe May... we dont have much that goes on in February... that seems like a great month to me!! (then again- any month sounds good to me...)

As of today- Matt and I have been married 8months,9days. :)

Have a Beautiful day!

Its Friday!!!

The weekend is here! Matthew and I are heading to the Mountains for the weekend. My grandparents have a camp on Caroga Lake in the ADX and we will be spending the weekend with them and a couple who has known me forever. Then the last weekend in Sept. we are going up alone. Kinda like a mini Honeymoon...at that point we will be married 9 months and still havnt gone on a honeymoon. We have no cell phone or internet access up there so the blog will be updated again next week! Have a Great Weekend- and A great Labor Day!

Another one...

Heylo again... I am currently at Alicias with Evan. He is such a good baby. And Alicias such a good mom. I hope I can be 1/2 the mom she is, and I am sure she will be a great aunt someday too-

 

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Busy Week Ahead....amongst other things...

First off-We have a busy week ahead. We are hosting my mothers birthday party and there is so much to do. Cleaning, Cooking, baking, organizing...all that- plus I dont have a day off this week and Matt is on call. I would like to find the time to visit with Alicia and Evan, and I am going to try my hardest to make it over there.

Secondly- As understood by some, and not by most- (but most who know me know how it is)...I have this uncontrollable want to be a mother. As I have mentioned before- We are waiting until after Aprils wedding to try again. After a year of heartbreak, and the finding out we have other issues with getting pregnant, we decided to take a break and make a plan. This makes me happy because we will be prepared, but it seems like I cant get it off my mind, and it makes me sad to think I wont even be pregnant until OVER a year from now, when all I want is to be a mother. Matt doesnt want to see me sad. But I dont want him to go against what he thinks either. No matter what- we cant even start trying until spring anyway.Even if we became pregnant in lets say- May or June- I wouldnt be showing for the wedding- or showing very little- and should be over the sickness phase.

I appologize to those who dont want to read this...or about this... but it will be a subject I will touch on frequently. Send me an email if you wish to not recieve our blog posts at this time. leahfors@hotmail.com

Update on TTC

Second Blog for today- :)
Matthew and I have decided to stop TTC and start TTSM.(Trying To Save Money!) We have projected that we will have our goal by June or July 2009 and then we will start again. This will also be a good time because I still wouldn't be showing (if we got it right the first time that is-) n September for my sisters wedding. I want her day to be all about her- and I don't want anyone worried about me. Even if we did happen to get prego before her wedding, we wouldn't announce it until after. Hopefully it will happen so we have a spring/summer baby.This way Matt can stay home for a week after delivery. :) 

**Baby Dust to those who are TTC**

Ancient Chinese Birth Chart

Hello Again! We created a poll Regarding the accuracy of the Ancient Chinese Birth chart. You can choose more then one answer if you have had multiple children, and you can vote more then once. You will want to follow the directions carefully. If you are a mother who was 19 when you concieved, but your 20th Birthday was within that calendar year, you will use the age 20. I.E.- My mom was 18 when she concieved my sister in February. She turned 19 that September. So she would use the 19th year. The poll is at the bottom of the page. Please feel free to try it out!

Its Almost the weekend!

We are so happy its almost the weekend. Matt is on call, but other then that it is supposed to be a good one. Leah gets to come home from Katonah on Saturday, and Sunday is Leah's Cousin Kim's 30th Birthday and her mom is having a pool party for her. At age 30- A pool party...now thats the life! lol... Katie and Leah baked cup cakes today. They are really pretty. and Yummy! They watched Martha Stewart when they were at Leahs great grandmothers house and she was making cupcakes too...thats where they got the idea. Leah is hoping Matt comes home soon because its almost 5:40 and he gets out of work at 4. hmmmm... she worries too much.

Dutchess County Fair/ Katonah

Last night we went to the Dutchess County Fair. It was Matts first time and he promised to take a day off next year- because we didnt get up there until 6ish, and it closed at 10. It usually takes about 8 hours to walk around the grounds and see everything, and an hour to wait on the milkshake line. So 4 hours just didn't cut it. :) But hopefully next year.

So We have been staying in Katonah everynight since Saturday. Leah has been dog sitting Brandy, a Black lab who is high strung and loves to play at 3am. Matt stayed Saturday, Katie stayed Sunday, and Matt is staying the rest of the week, Leah just cant stay by herself. She has this fear of being alone and someone abducting her.Matt is happy she wants him with her because he gets lonely at home alone without her. Tyson will be really happy when we come home!

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