Busy Week Ahead....amongst other things...

First off-We have a busy week ahead. We are hosting my mothers birthday party and there is so much to do. Cleaning, Cooking, baking, organizing...all that- plus I dont have a day off this week and Matt is on call. I would like to find the time to visit with Alicia and Evan, and I am going to try my hardest to make it over there.

Secondly- As understood by some, and not by most- (but most who know me know how it is)...I have this uncontrollable want to be a mother. As I have mentioned before- We are waiting until after Aprils wedding to try again. After a year of heartbreak, and the finding out we have other issues with getting pregnant, we decided to take a break and make a plan. This makes me happy because we will be prepared, but it seems like I cant get it off my mind, and it makes me sad to think I wont even be pregnant until OVER a year from now, when all I want is to be a mother. Matt doesnt want to see me sad. But I dont want him to go against what he thinks either. No matter what- we cant even start trying until spring anyway.Even if we became pregnant in lets say- May or June- I wouldnt be showing for the wedding- or showing very little- and should be over the sickness phase.

I appologize to those who dont want to read this...or about this... but it will be a subject I will touch on frequently. Send me an email if you wish to not recieve our blog posts at this time. leahfors@hotmail.com