It was abrupt and to the point

Sorry the last entry was so abrupt...but I am upset today. I mean- come on...in HS they tell you if you miss a pill your life is over because you will get pregnant. well- NEWS FLASH- its been 2 years since I was on the Pill...

Matt and I want to have a child of our own in the worst way. Being parents is important to us- and sometimes I think about how long it is taking and I just don't want to get out of bed. What is there to get up for? The cat gets in bed when Matt leaves...so hes by my side. He knows I'm upset and he tries to comfort me. It reminds me of Magnum whenever I was sad...he always wanted to be by my side. and I think if he lived with us he would still be there...

I don't want anyone to think I'm depressed or anything, but I really feel very strongly about being a parent. God has taken one child away from me, and I understand that he has his reasons, but what are his reasons now? Married- Check. In Love-Check. Financially situated- Check. Suitable Home-Check....so- now what?

I also wanted to tell everyone my sleeping pattern has returned to semi-normal. Up at 10(unless its Monday or Thursday) and to bed at 2. Its a healthy 8 hours.

TCC Update

So, not only did AF decide to show her UGLY UGLY face, she showed it a day early. If she was a real person, I'd ring her neck!

So onto Cycle #17 we go...still praying, Still hoping...and wanting to cry. I think to myself, Why me? Why does this have to happen to us? Someone who can afford a child, who wants one more then life itself, my DH and I want this baby so badly. So- why us?

I hate the- "you are young, give it time" line. Yeah- I'm 21...but hello- DH is 35. We are ready for this baby. Why cant we have it?

Getting pregnant shouldnt be this difficult.

Hello

Hello Friends and Family!
I know- once again it has been a while but with our in-and-out wireless its hard to determine when we can get online.

Not much is new. I made sqash soup for the first time- and it was great. I also made apple crisp tonight. We have been pumpkin patching it the past 2 weekends, and tomorrow(Columbus day) i plan on being there...as Sclafani is open and Matthew has to work.

I have started Christmas shopping... and we have decided to not do it last minute this year.

We have birthdays coming up as well...
April- Oct. 18th
Momma- Nov. 6th
Dad Fors- Nov. 20th

As well as Stefans birthday just passing- Oct 10th and Melissa Oct 15th...is approaching fast.
Thanksgiving is coming too! Im sure we will be spending that with my family this year- because Matt has to work the Friday after- but the plan is leaving when he gets home and heading to VA to Jason and Saras for a couple days. I have never been to there house and Matt hasnt been since they moved. We are excieted- especially me because I've never been to VA and stayed. Once I was there with my Dad- but I was little. I think the place was called blue ridge Lumber. lol... I thought their Purple Pencils were cool. But I guess thats what happens when you are 7. haha...

Anyway- goodnight and farewell for today!

<3 all

Sorry

Hello Friends and Family...

Sorry that its been a while, but between the lack of sleep and the schedule I've got I havn't been online much. It doesnt help that the wireless is in and out at our house. Its givin me time to do other things, like the Christmas budget, the list of cards we are sending, and started some shopping. Theres nothing like being prepared.

Anyway- I dont have much to write about today...I hope all is well with everyone and I hope everyone is excited about **Fall**

Good Day!

I have had a good day today! I am on day 4 of being a non-smoker. I feel good and even healthier already. I am really going to try to keep this up. I am also signed up for FitDay. Its a calorie tracking site. Being that I just quit smoking, I want to make sure I dont over eat. It helps me to have such great support. Alicia and Matt have been so great. I've only had a few cravings, but I've stayed strong.

We have come into contact with some of Matts family. He didnt know that his cousins had had kids, and was surprised. You've gotta love Facebook! :)

I've been spending a lot of time with Lish and Evan. Its a great accent to my days filled with Aunt Irene and Gran. I feel better now that I am spending time with someone my own age, and its always nice when there is a baby around.

We are looking into getting a Honda Accord when we get pregnant, I've come to realize the Jeep isnt going to last forever, and an SUV- as much as I'd love to have one, isn't going to be good for our pockets when it comes to gas. Especially when we are going to try to save money for Baby.

We might go upstate this weekend. My grandmother said its supposed to be nice. Then next weekend we can take Magnum to the Pumpkin Patch so he can get some exercise. :) and so we can get some. We have made a vow to get healthy! :):)

I slept!

It was great! I slept a whole 10 hours last night. 10-8. It was magnificent. I feel so much better. :) Thank you Matt...:)

Dress shopping went well. We found the dresses...on the first try and we are all very happy with the ones we picked.

Wide awake...going on night 9...grrr..

So- I'm wide awake...its 2am. I've cleaned the apt. Did the dishes, started the dishwasher and will empy it when its finished if I am still awake, checked my myspace and my facebook....now I've decided to update the blog...

I dont remember where I left off-so here goes...

My moms party was a hit. Momma and Daniel came up Sunday instead and we went tag saling.Matt has been on call, and we finally got to relax tonight after shopping for Kaylas B-day gift. Magnums Birthday is Monday, and Kaylas is Tuesday.

Todays Plans- 9/13
Get up (if I even go to bed) at 7.
Take a shower.
Lish is picking me up at 8 so we can drop the baby off( Did I mention he sat up by him self the other day... so exciting..I was glad I was there to witness it...GO EVAN!)and then pick up Morgan and head to Scarsdale to look at Bridesmaids dresses with my sister. Then off to Lunch in Bronxville- then to another shoppe to look at more dresses. All in all- there will be 7 of us. Fun.

So- thats about all I've been up to besides the usual Aunt Irene and Gran stuff... Hope I can write more soon...Shopping will be an adventure all in its own... G'nite!